What am I doing between the hours of 9AM and 5PM?

I'm reaching that point in my young life where it's getting harder to dodge the questions about what I'm going to do with my life.  I've been out of school for more than a year and time hasn't slowed down yet.

I suffer from the delusion that I'm actually really old.  I have no concept of how much time lies ahead of me and as a result any kind of change seems unfeasible.   Which is total bullshit.  But that's how my mind works.

I made a nifty little flow chart (because you know I have time for this) but the jist goes like this:

• stay in the Admin field like I've been doing
• I DO have my foot in the door
• it's boring as F****
• I really don't feel accomplished
• desk = caged animal 

• switch to clinical side of healthcare
• MA, PA, etc
• it would be more dynamic
• it would probably be more satisfying, plus the added benefit of security/stability
• I DON'T have my foot in the door
• more classes/school
• start from square one

• be a personal trainer
• pretty much being paid to workout and yell at people
• yoga pants all day every day
• helping people become fit is very rewarding to me
• BUT I like nice things and stability and I don't know if this job could give me that

Really the only thing that is clear is that I'm not going to be happy if I stay on the path I'm currently on.  That's easy.  What's hard is figuring out where to go instead.

I'll never choose a job over the relationships I've formed with the people in my life; I've never been that way.  And I'm lucky to have a job right now that allows me the luxury to mull over my life without worrying about paying the bills.

Don't mind me, I'll just be mulling things over in the corner.